I am heartbroken.

My best friend, Alecia, is moving five hours north to "The County" due to her husband's new job promotion. Alecia and I met when she was waitressing and I was still being irresponsible and frequenting the local tavern for fun. We hit it off quickly and soon we were each other's closest confidants. We have been there for each other through horrible relationships, but both got to stand next to each other at our weddings to wonderful men. We were also there for each other during the amazing births of both of our daughters. During the last year we have been fortunate enough to be home at the same time with our kids, which brought us even closer. We have been able to help each other whenever needed, spend many mornings drinking coffee and pretending that we had nothing to do, and have had many wonderful opportunities to have lots of fun with our families together.

We've known about her "possible" move for a while now. Alecia is officially moving in the next few weeks. I can't stop crying. Our husbands feel bad for us, because they know how close we are, but I don't think they understand how close. I have had many dear friends in my life so far. I should be grateful that Alecia has been so special. I just have this sinking feeling that a huge piece of me is walking away. I feel so selfish, because I am secretly (not anymore) frustrated that she won't be close by after my baby is born this winter. We are both bothered because she and I have invested so much into our friendship and we do not feel like trying to find another person to fill the void (I'm not sure anyone could.) She truly is my "soul friend" as cheesy as that may sound.

I'm only going to allow myself to feel bitter and depressed for a short time longer. I really am grateful to have her in my life and I know that she will continue to be there for years to come. When we retire we are each going to own RVs and travel around to our children's colleges to embarrass them. I wish for everyone to experience the type of friendship that I have with Alecia. She has helped me to laugh more, love more, and to focus on the positive things in life.